B.J. Love: Everyday Is Fucking Perfect
This is where that particular army is made, the ways
in which we will revel in it. I love the installation. Look
at how it heals me. Me, an average citizen with average
mirrored bones, my average skeleton seeing itself only
in you. Your blood running over it like lightning, like
a future, lean and angular and unreal. Follow it. Follow
it all. What science do we have to believe in? I mean,
really believe in? These bones don’t make me a man
they are only making me more bones. All ranked and
filed. What they say is real hero. What they got is just
a heart beating back. I fear I am inappropriate in this
world. Listen deep. Fall in line with my frequencies.
That tone? That tone is the humming of my better
machines. My guts. Hello. Hello guts. We are lonely
without these late night talks. We are lonely with
these bones that are invisible to their environment.
Mirrors make an echo chamber of free repeating
reflections. This, for instance, is my forever femur.
What pants are right on a day like today? What hands?
Nakedness doesn’t frighten me. How things get lost
in the bigness of my biology does. I don’t know how
I keep it all in me. Skin is a solid representation of
some end. Where the mirror fails. I feel overcome
frequently. I have felled my own limbs and certainly
they can be a fortress, but I prefer they be inviting.
We are lonely and it is impossible to send messages
through a failed system. There is soon to be a shutdown.
On television there is talk that if we open our eyes wide
enough, any number of new countries would overtake
their horizons. And yet, in mine all we see is five tiny
birds lost in the tremendous rustling of a clouded sky.