Talin Tahajian: Baptism
We begin our lives by dying
& waking up again, eyes sensitive
to the kind of light that exists in places
that aren’t heaven. This isn’t heaven.
I like the way other countries look
after midnight. Ghosts swimming
through empty chapels. That silence
is something sacred. Too dark to see
your reflection as a god in a display
window. Glass is one of the only
honest things. I love not knowing
what it means to be innocent. I rinse
my mouth with every kind of holy
water. By that, I mean I have kissed
the mouths of so many beautiful boys.
I remember thinking or saying This
is how I want to finish my life. To unlearn
the Bible, first I would have to read it
until I understand what it means
to be a religion, to embrace that sort
of death with bright things.
Mussel
Too many times, I have watched
flesh turn. Familiar things:
a daughter cracking mussels
against the pier, mollusks alive
and smacking. Yellow meat
crushed against bedrock.
A shade of white so slight, it is what
I imagine it's like to be open, inviting.
Someday, there will be no
such thing as boneless. At night
even salt glows with the light
of a body underwater.